Friendship changes the tone of life

This is an earlier poem I wrote. We have our ups and downs on the rollercoaster of life. This is when you value friends.

DARKER TONES

The sound of the jetcat,
a distant beacon,
on the half hour like morse code,
interrupts my slumber,

I roll over to drown in the feeling
of nothingness,
a sense of senselessness, quiet, peace
pervades my being,

in the twilight of my mind I
drift rolling over my dreams,
the dreams seem so real,
I am nonchalantly learning,
they connect with my inner feel.

The dreams like instructions,
remind me of a things I wish to bury,
but they reoccur again and again
from the unconscious they are conscious
and they influence my emotional state,
entering into my constant fate.

I awake lying very still,
thoughts rolling through my mind like
waves crashing on to the beach,
the images like seagulls flying, circling
sounds alerting me to contemplate,
again sounding the horn of my fate.

My mood a melancholy,
as it tremors through my soul,
sets the pace of the day,
overwhelmed I just don’t want to say,
I feel a pain as it shudders through my neck and shoulder,
time seems so chaotic,
I don’t feel any older,
our lives so affected,
we cannot consider ourselves alone,
my heart carries me through the darker tone.

Everything is so subtle we don’t know how we feel,
we cover, protect, distract, protract our attentions,
but in fact we are living in suspension,
Oh I know I cannot escape the mood prevailing me,
but I guess in retrospect a second sight I see,
through the down we go up,
when we go up there is no ground,
I thank god for my good friend